Kino's Diary

Tuesday, 30 June 2009

  • 一個人,倆個樣

     

    我呢。。。

    可以說是,

    我有極端的性格。

     

    最近,

    好不容易請了一個星期的斷假,

    去松松一口氣、修修養性。

     

    雖然曾經是有放過假出國旅游,

    但是回國時,

    人總是已經累得半條人命。

    而且隔一倆天就得回到工作崗位上,

    那比沒拿假期還來得累。

     

    這次的假期截然不同,

    我沒有出國旅游,

    也沒有到處游蕩,

    只是待在家無所事事而已。

     

    我沒有特別去安排這一天或是那一天得做些什么,

    只是想到要做什么就做什么。

    不受拘束,

    無憂無慮地做自己喜歡的事。

     

    這是我很想要的休息方式。

     

    就是在這幾天的休息期間,

    我覺得我本人變得沉靜許多。

     

    一天內,

    話也說不上十句,

    只是靜靜的,

    做自己的事。

    如果沒必要,

    我肯本都不用開口說話。

     

    我知道,

    當我和朋友在一起時,

    我的話自然而然就變多了。

    我也不只為何會這樣。

    但我也能不說話。

     

    如果是三個人的對話,

    你可以很明顯地看得出我只是在旁聆聽,

    不然我就是已經在對話中斷了線。

    可能是因為好不容易地找到了安靜的時刻,

    所以就會很自然地投入在靜界里。

     

    不過,

    如果突然沉靜下來,

    朋友會開始覺得我很不給面子,

    出門還擺出一個樣。

    或者他們覺得我好像有不開心的事悶在心里頭。

    我只能說,

    我這個人本來就是話少。

    從小到大都是這樣。

     

    我好喜歡一個人沉思的時候,

    因為能不受任何干擾,

    想一想自己的事。

     

    有時候,

    我呢,

    就是想要靜靜的。。。。

    獨自一個人過着這樣的休閑日子。

Sunday, 28 June 2009

  • 這一年來


    一年來,面對的煩惱可真多

     

    不過,如果客觀地看待這一切,我也算成長了不少。

    所謂的,經一事,長一智。

     

    曾經為愛,莽撞了他人的心。

    結果呢?還不是搞得自己渾身是傷。

    在那一瞬間,我的心已經停止跳動。

     

    執着感情的我,堅信着愛的約定,

    相信只要耐心地等待,就能感動到緣分。

     

    但是我錯了。

     

    等待是沒有幸福的。

    等待只有帶給你悲傷。

    等待只會讓你痛苦。

    等待,終究是不會有結果的。

    等待,他知道嗎?

     

    付出了那么多,

    他曾幾何時為我做過什么值得我去開心,值得我去留念的一些事?

    別談說什么送送花,弄個大驚喜,或是什么浪漫的事讓你感動流淚,

    只想要的是一份簡簡單單的心意, 他做到了嗎?


    當他寂寞孤單的時候,

    我愿意,成為他的避風港。

    當他傷心哭泣的時候,

    我愿意,變成一把能為他擋風遮雨的大傘。

    不過,當我需要他的時候,

    他在那里?

     

    曾經。。。

    還以為時間不能沖淡一切。

    還以為自己無法跨越愛的荊棘。

    還以為這輩子只有等待、等待、再等待的命運。

    還以為就此無法忘了他。

     

    當我決定要把這一切劃上完美的據點時,

    我的生命里忽然出現了一位客串大使。

    他的出現竟然能讓我刷清所有悲傷。。。一點一滴的回憶。

     

    但事事難預料。。

    當我開始對愛情慢慢地有些信心時,

    我的心再次狠狠地被震碎。

     

    我不會怪任何人,

    因為太相信愛情的人是我,

    因為愿意跳進這火坑的人也是我。

    所以由不得我去怪任何一個人。

     

    不過,自己覺得奇怪的事是。。

    隨着時間的流逝,

    我竟然能這么快地就收拾好自己的心情,

    也很快地決定。。。為自己而邁向新的人生。

     

    可能是因為經歷了許許多多,

    也懂得如何收放自如。

    也可能因為自己長大了,

    懂得那些是值得珍惜的事、那些是值得收藏的回憶。

     

    所謂的,有就有,沒有就沒有。

    為何為了不可能的事,

    而苦苦地等着?

    何必?

     

    這一年來,我已經心如止水。


    PS

    松手吧!

    放棄吧!

    還有很多的人事物等着你去完成,等着你去面對體會,等着你去好好地享受一番。

     

    盡情地享樂,

    盡情地把心懷敞開,

    盡情地接收新的挑戰,

    盡情地面對新的人生。


    你可以做得到的,

    因為!!!


Saturday, 27 June 2009

  • SG Wannabe-ing!!

    I'm clearing my leave these few days.. Nothing much to do and so I stay home.. Missed the delivery on Wednesday and so I waited for the redelivery on Friday.. *WEEeeEEe*

    My long-waited SG Wannabe Concert DVDs!! In fact, it took me quite a while to buy the dvds online~~ heez! Along with SG Wannabe, I also bought FT Island's.... SG is still the best..... Perhaps FT is too young a group for me.. heez.. But they do have great voices too~~

    SG Wannabe is simply soooo AWESOME~~ I love their voices, love their songs, love their performances.... that I watched so many times on Friday and I slept at 3am.... I bought 2 concerts... one is Dongha's farewell concert while the other celebrates the welcome of SG new member, Suk Hoon~~~

    I used to admire Jin Ho's vocal... Young, with a mighty vocal..... Till I get to hear Suk Hoon's voice in vol.5.... Woah.... Another guy with great potential... and his voice really caught my ears.... The concert makes me love him ever more!!! LEE SUK HOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    Still misses Dongha~~~ ^^ Will he ever perform with his friends again??

    Yong Jun, Dong Ha, Jin Ho


    Yong Jun, Dong Ha, Jin Ho again~~ ^^



    Suk Hoon, the new member...


    Suk Hoon is SOOO cute....


    Suk Hoon's solo debut - Goodbye with a Smile ^^
      

Wednesday, 17 June 2009

  • Need lots of ZzzZzzz


    Yesterday... was my longest day at work.... Woke up at 6am and reached office at 740am for dept duty (covering Kel)... But the door was opened before I arrived... Was really busy the whole day till I knocked off at 11pm with bear and CC.... Supposed to go out for dinner together but then the taxi uncle advised us to head for home straight as it will not be worth to pay for midnight charge... Hence all of us headed home and I had maggie mee as dinner at 12am....

    *Shagged*

    And today, I woke up at 6am again for 2nd duty....and.... I just feel like sleeping my head off the table......

    I'm really tired.............................and..................I really need my bed.................................... ='(

Tuesday, 02 June 2009

  • Gift and Stuff from Japan


    Met up with CT on Saturday afternoon.... So nice of her that she got me Shiroi Koibito Biscuits again! heez... and not forgetting she sold me the Tsuyoshi pamphlet which belonged to her.. (I'm so forgetful that I forgot to ask her to get one for me when she was attending his concert =P) THanks lots!

    The Snacks and Pamphlet



    Tsuyo's Concert Pamphlet









       

    My fav Jap Snacks - Shiroi Koibito







       

Monday, 01 June 2009

  • 當我愛上你時


    我愿意付出101%的愛來訶護你,

    對你的愛將會是永恒、會是一生一世。

     

    我愿意用我一生來陪伴你,

    把孤寂驅逐到你心外,

    希望你永遠不會感到孤單

     

    我愿意盡我所能給予你歡樂,

    把悲傷驅逐到你心外,

    希望幸福天堂能降臨于你。

     

    我愿意在你生命里填寫快樂的每一頁,

    希望你能擁有甜美的回憶。

     

    我愿意不惜一切來保護你,

    希望你不會受到任何傷害。

     

    當我愛上你時,你將會是我全部

     

Saturday, 30 May 2009

  • Terminator Salvation


    Went to watch 'Terminator Salvation' with HY, CC and 1420 @ Lido. I was certain that I would fall asleep during the show as I was really tired the whole week and today was the worst day...

    Surprisingly, I didn't even have a wink..... I love this movie...

    Nothing much to comment about this show. But 1420 and I were attracted to the 2 male leads in the movie.. Christian Bale and Sam Worthington  *SHUAI* heez

    Terminator Salvation Movie Poster





    The 2 yandaos...



    1420's love - Christian Bale




    But I prefer him - Sam Worthington

     



    Time to go to bed... 0405 hrs right now.. And I'm blogging about this 2 yandaos.. Guess I have nothing better to do... I just dun feel like going to bed... But I got to as I will be meeting my friends and celebrating my sis' 21st birthday later... *yawnZZzzZz*


Friday, 29 May 2009

  • TWZ-D 的故事

    謝謝阿木。。。使我更明白TWZ D劇情的描述。愿你心中的怒火已經平息。抱歉讓你在送豆腐的路途中遇到不可思議、難以解說的事情。也抱歉讓你受到心靈上的創傷和委屈。這段故事使豆腐更了解的一切。對藤原豆腐店的記憶逐漸感到模糊、也逐漸在心域中被磨滅。這段故事再也不會有續集。




Monday, 25 May 2009

  • Feeling lethargic over the weekend


    I didn't step out of the house for the past 2 days... except my blading session on Sunday Morning.. I questioned myself why I was feeling that way... I had no mood for anything... I just wanna stayed home and had a good rest..

    Went out for the whole day on Friday - Sentosa and Drinking session till 2 plus am... I slept at 4am and could hardly wake myself up.. I slept throughout the whole morning.. till I forced myself to wake up at 130pm and had my lunch...Drama-ed as usual..

    Marie and bro came back... and they were packing their things... Heard some minor squabbling over the things that they were packing... I ignored and continued my drama and online..

    I had no idea why I decided to go for a quick run at 430.... I was feeling sleepy but at the same time feeling a bit frustrated... Met up with FKK to pass him Kindaichi shows before I headed on for my run...

    Marie and I were chasing after the Bai Quan Nuu Wang drama episodes and we planned to go for a movie after that.. but then we were too nua and sleepy that we cancelled our plan and stayed home..

    Sunday.... went to blade with Piggy... I fell twice... but I was enjoying the process of learning... and overcoming the fear of falling... I fell hard... And I was smiling away...

    Went home... DVD-ed and fell asleep shortly... Woke up for lunch... and continued dramaing till 4.. and I slept till late evening.... when my mom woke me up for dinner... felt like sleeping again...

    CC jio-ed me for movie on both days... but I declined... I just dun feel like going out...

    Hmmm.. what's on my mind back then? Trying to trap myself in an isolated cave - a sign of escapism? or was I trying to detach myself from everything? or was I just being plain lazy and feeling lethargic that I wouldn't want to do anything? *Confused*

    Today, feeling neither up to mood nor better.. I almost applied for an urgent leave. I'm still hoping for a longer break from work... Monday blues... It's attacking me real hard...

    I just want to be home, doing the things that I want to do...



Thursday, 21 May 2009

  • Leading a Simple Life


    Taking things easy... Taking a step forward.... Taking a new leap in life.... What should I actually do?

    Trying to be brave and face new challenges.. Trying to be confident in everything I do... Trying to be strong when I'm feeling down... Trying to be tough when I'm feeling exhausted... Trying to be the best that I could...

    Learning the fruits of success from my failure... Learning how to pick up new things and let go of them at the same time... Learning how to let go of the past and my attached feelings to it... Learning how to strive in this complex world and survive.... Learning how to keep memories alive and painless...Learning how to cherish more worthwhile things in life...

    Hoping things will be simpler with less complexity... But that's life...

    All I want is to lead a simple life... Always on my mind...... always....

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  • leelj
    Yoz!! Hope everything is fine for you recently. Meet up with you after my busy practicum. 5 more weeks to freedom! Take care gal!
    • Posted 4/5/2009 5:29 AM
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  • leelj
    hi gal, hope your better day will come soon. dun worry too much or be too upset ya. learn to adapt i guess is one of the way out. Take care, gal!Lee
    • Posted 3/17/2009 8:06 AM
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  • leelj
    glad u got over it le! =)
    • Posted 3/7/2009 2:40 PM
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  • juan1i1ee
    Yoz~!! Such an insightful post =) really like the railway track and sunset/sunrise questions hahah
  • leelj
    knock knock... hope everything is good for you recently =) lj
    • Posted 1/14/2009 9:52 AM
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  • yingkydoodle
    my fren. how are u. hope ur life is alrite... when i read about ur reflections... i tink about my own. and i kind of realise, its true... i miss home alot, and miss the past alot... it isnt easy to forget wadeva u had... i noe, i wont tell u to do so, cos i dun tink i can myself... but all i wanna
  • HyeKang
    @kochanfan - hey! no lah.. u saw the section under "Chatty Corner".. there's a link!! u can leave ur comments there.. no need to be here
    • Posted 9/15/2008 12:30 PM
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  • kochanfan
    is this the place to leave a comment? LOLanyway, when u gonna send me our pictures! XD
  • HyeKang
    Jojo, so nice to see you ard at my blog! hahaha! are you gg to use back ur old address since ur new one was closed down... hahahha! u ah.. go and change ur bday date for wat?! hahaha! yah! will shun qi zi ran~~~~~~~~~~~~~ got a lot of photos meh.. now kind of lazy liao.. hahah!
    • Posted 8/6/2008 12:55 AM
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  • yingkydoodle
    hey! wow nice design. i love the sunset. its beautiful. yay im touched seeing my ex blog under ur frens section ~ *cries* u r rite actualli, seeking and pursuing a simple calm life is not such an easy thing too... don't worry ... 'when the boat reaches the bridge, it will become straight naturally